Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Trying to stay encouraged

Well, we still haven't heard anything yet and it is becoming harder and harder to stay encouraged. I know we will eventually get him, but we were told it might be any day, so our hopes got too high. I guess it will be next year before we hear anything. This is definitely the most excruciating time in the whole process, because you know he is only a bit of paperwork and a phone call away. And yet it takes forever!!! My case worker has been so great and the agency we are going through has also been awesome, it's just hard to not know what we are still waiting for. Other agencies are saying that their parents may have to wait until February before they can bring their babies home. I SO hope we don't have to wait that long. I worry that the longer Niko stays there, the more attached he becomes to his Foster Mother and the harder it will be for him to transition with us. I guess there is nothing we can do about it so we shouldn't stress, but it's hard!!!

I wonder if he had a good Christmas day and whether they had a tree. I feel awful because we haven't been able to really send them anything except photos. I hope she doesn't feel that we don't care about her as i haven't even sent photos. My thinking was that we were going to be seeing them soon anyway and i have a bunch of gifts for her. I hate unknowns!!!!! (Please excuse the griping) Every adoptive parent goes through this stage because you are so close and yet you don't know HOW close you are. So if you are planning on ever being an adoptive parent, please be prepared for a LOT of waiting. The reward is worth it, but your patience is definitely tested :)

Keeping my fingers crossed for the call very soon.

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